[personal profile] zoeytmccarthy
I just want you to hold me in your warm, muscular arms just one more time like you did for 8 months. I want you 1 last time. Please. I miss your smile. I miss your perfectly, retarded laugh and the way your nose got all scrunched up. I miss falling asleep hearing you breathe and hearing you swallow. I miss making fun of you for having to take liquid medice because you couldnt swallow pills. I miss it when there would be a girl staring at you, you would grab my hand and kiss me. I miss your voice. I miss my life, my world, my best friend, my soulmate. I miss you. I miss me. I dont know who I am anymore. I dont know what to do with my life. This is killing me. Its tearing me apart. We were like a movie. Whyd you let it all go??? We were perfect. I loved you so so so much. You made me feel like I was the WORLD, like you couldnt live without me. Then, then you threw me away like I meant nothing. I was so "special" you were able to find someone within 4 hours after I was gone. I hope youre happy. I hope shes everything you wanted but sometimes I wish you were miserable without me as terrible as it sounds. I wish you needed me. I wish you wanted and still loved me but I know you dont. At times, I wonder if you ever did or if all that was just part of a game too. Im sorry I wasnt good enough. Im sorry I couldnt make you happy. Im sorry I wasnt everything you needed. Im sorry im ME. Without you, im nobody. I have to find myself all over again. You were such a part of my daily life that once you were gone I didnt know what to do with myself. You will NEVER understand how much this hurts and I hope you never have to. You promised... You promised...

Anonymous( )Anonymous This account has disabled anonymous posting.
OpenID( )OpenID You can comment on this post while signed in with an account from many other sites, once you have confirmed your email address. Sign in using OpenID.
User (will be screened)
Account name:
If you don't have an account you can create one now.
HTML doesn't work in the subject.


Notice: This account is set to log the IP addresses of everyone who comments.
Links will be displayed as unclickable URLs to help prevent spam.


Zoey T McCarthy

February 2016

1415 16 17181920

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated 21 September 2017 08:28
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios